Trudy

Soul Longings to Know Jesus More

“My goal is to know Him
and the power of His resurrection
and the fellowship of His sufferings,
being conformed to His death.”
Philippians 3:10 HCSB

Lord Jesus Christ,
I Want to Know You

I want to really, truly know You. Deeply, personally, intimately. In the depths of my soul. To believe in You, not just about You. I want Your desires and Your passions to become mine. I want to “know” You so well that I will live and breathe You with every step I take in this life.

I Want to Know the Power of Your Resurrection

I want to not only believe You rose from the dead, but that it was personally for me. That You left my sins buried there in the grave, and now I am truly free. I don’t want to live weighed down with a heavy burden of my own sins and the sins against me. I want to be freed from the chains of shame. I want to inwardly experience that same power that rose You from the dead, to be saturated in and fired up with Your resurrection power in me that I will live for You with all my heart, soul, strength, and mind. That I will live in and through You and Your power with every fiber of my being. That I will fly freely for You.

I Want to Know the Fellowship of Your Sufferings

I want to grasp more deeply how much You suffered for me. How You suffered such excruciating pain out of Your deep love for me. But Lord, sometimes it’s so hard to ask to know more of the fellowship of Your sufferings, because I know that means I, too, must learn what it is to suffer. But You have said that if I want to share in Your glory, I must also share in Your suffering. And Lord, I know You have taught me more about You and the bottomless depths of Your love through sufferings. It is through sufferings that I learn to be more like You. It is through sufferings that I experience more of the power of Your resurrection. But oh, Lord, no matter what kind of sufferings I go through in this life, it will never, ever be even a speck of what You have suffered for me. What body, mind, and soul anguish You endured! Thank You, Jesus, for Your unconditional, fathomless, faithful love!

I Want to Become More Like You in Your Death

I want to continually be conformed to Your likeness. In the inward depths of my soul. I want to die to myself and live for You. I want my selfish desires to fall away. I want You to increase and me to decrease. I want to be so planted into the likeness of Your death that I will willingly take up my cross and follow You, no matter what the cost. I want to be ready to suffer for Your sake. Please, Lord, make me strong in You and for You.

“Jesus Is Alive”
by Fellowship Creative

“Captured By Your Love
That You Would Give Your Life
Oh I Stand Amazed that
Jesus Is Alive”

 

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  1. Trudy, your entire post here reads as a glorious prayer. You have given us the perfect reflection for this Holy Week and coming Easter when we celebrate Jesus’ resurrection and our salvation for all eternity.
    And as hard as it its, thank you for reminding us that suffering is a part of this journey with the Lord; we must yield all to Him, the difficult times included.
    Blessings for a joyful Easter, my friend!

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    • I’m so glad this prayer blesses you, Martha. How true it is what you write about how “we must yield all to Him, the difficult times included.” It’s often so hard to, isn’t it? But He gives us sufficient grace. Blessings for a joyful Easter to you, too! May the power of His resurrection empower us to live for Him!

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  2. This is a lovely prayer, Trudy. I agree- I want to know Jesus more closely and really grasp his love and power. It’s not easy to embrace suffering but it helps to remember that Jesus has been there and he understands. Easter blessings to you!

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    • Thank you, Lesley. No, it certainly is not easy to embrace suffering. But yes, it helps so much to remember that Jesus has been there. Joyous Easter blessings to you, too! May we ever more deeply grasp Jesus’ limitless love and power!

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    • Thank you, Sita. I’m glad this prayer touches your heart. We surely do need that ‘aliveness’ in our hearts and situations. I love you, too, my sister in Christ. I pray you have a joyful, aliveness-in-your-heart Easter. May we truly grasp the power of His love!

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  4. Dear Trudy,
    I am just resting quietly in such a beautiful prayer that you offered. The words go into the deep places of my heart, and cause me to ask, “Am I willing to truly give Jesus my all, here? To really join in His suffering?” I think these questions come fresh to us throughout our lives, and have to be answered again, in the now-ness of each season. There are days when I feel that I have given consent to suffer with and for Him, and then something new hits, and I am convicted all over again. Thank you for these fresh longings to be HIS, during this Holy Week. May you be blessed with beautiful Easter times with Him, dear friend!

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    • I’m so glad you can identify with these deep longings, Bettie. I know what you mean about how those questions come fresh in the nowness of each season. It’s so hard to surrender and give our all to Jesus, even in our suffering. I’m grateful we can encourage each other in this journey. I pray you will also be blessed with beautiful Easter times with Him, my dear friend. May we daily learn to take up our cross and follow Him!

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  5. Amen. A beautiful prayer of gratitude and of an unconditional love. And hope. There is a gift in our suffering and there is the Gift of the One who suffered for us. Thank you for your prayer. What a blessed way to start my day.

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    • I’m so glad this blessed your day, Lynn. I love your thoughts about there being a gift in our suffering and a Gift of the One who suffered for us. I pray you have a an Easter filled with hope and joy in that Gift! May the magnitude of what Jesus has done for us truly sink into our hearts!

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  6. Hi Trudy! Isn’t it something that whatever pain we experience, it never reaches the pain of the Passion and death of Jesus? What an awesome thing to think about… that you and me were worth it all.
    I loved your using the idea of flying freely too, reminded me of the name of your blog!
    May this Holy Week be a graced time for you, and have a wonderful Easter celebration too. Jesus conquered it all, and we rejoice!
    Blessings,
    Ceil

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    • Yes, Ceil, it is something that our pain will never reach the pain Jesus endured for us. It’s mind boggling, isn’t it, to think He loved us so much and counted us worth it all? I pray you have a wonderful Easter, too, filled with joy in Jesus! May we more and more learn to fly freely in the power of His resurrection!

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  7. Oh my, what a wonderful, heartfelt prayer! It’s so rich and full I know I need to return and let its beauty sink into my soul, its conviction, courage and love for God determine my own faith steps. I appreciate the beauty of your own soul, Trudy, poured out before God and laid bare for us, privy as we are to this most intimate conversation and soul yearning. How hard it is to pick out a specific thread that speaks to me, because all of it does!
    But if anything reminds me of being “rooted”―the one word God laid on my heart for this year―then it is this: “I want to be so planted into the likeness of Your death that I will willingly take up my cross and follow You, no matter what the cost. I want to be ready to suffer for Your sake. Please, Lord, make me strong in You and for You.” Oh yes and amen! Thank you so much for this inspiring post. It makes me wish my own thoughts hadn’t taken such a dark, stark and direct route to the cross in my forthcoming blog posts. This is a truly uplifting read, full of resurrection hope. Bless you, dear friend. xox ❤

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    • I’m so glad this prayer speaks to your heart, Joy. I had a feeling it would as I know you long to know Him more deeply, too. Thank you for sharing how it speaks to your one word God laid on your heart. xoxo to you, too! I pray this Easter will fill your heart with resurrection hope! May we learn ever deeper of what it means take up our cross and follow our Lord who has loved us so much to die for us!

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  8. What a heartfelt pouring out to God, Trudy. I really feel your passion here for the Lord. Thank you for sharing this with us! “I want to “know” You so well that I will live and breathe You with every step I take in this life.” Me, too!

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    • I’m so grateful we can be on this journey together, Lisa, desiring to live and breathe Him with our every step. I pray you will have a joy-filled Easter! May we together live in, through, and for Him to the glory of His Name!

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  9. Hi Trudy
    I want to know him like this too! I want him to be my everything! Thank you for sharing this beautiful prayer! I love the verse you have put down too- How amazing that he will respond to us when we press on to know him more! Happy Easter!! xoxo

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    • I can tell through your poems that you also long to know Him more, Susie. I can so identify with the yearnings in your poems. Yes, isn’t that Hosea verse comforting? As surely as the dawn arises or the spring rains come, He WILL respond! I pray Easter will give you renewed hope and strength! xoxo to you, too! May we press on to know Him ever more deeply!

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  10. Thank you for sharing this beautiful prayer with us, Trudy. I love how you used Phil. 3:10 as your guide … there’s so much truth and passion in your words. Many Easter blessings to you, my friend, both this weekend and beyond!

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    • Thank you, Lois. Yes, Easter and beyond. There is always so much more to learn of Jesus and His love, isn’t there? And it’s something to celebrate every day. I pray you have a joy-filled Easter. May the power of His resurrection ever dwell in our hearts!

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  11. Thank you for this beautiful offering. You described what it means to live and die with Christ. I want what you described too. I just listened to a song by Steffany Gretzinger called “Out of Hiding”. These words in the song bring me to my knees —-> You were the one that I was thinking of when I rose from the grave.

    I pray you have a wonderful Easter and know you are redeemed and restored by our Risen Jesus.

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    • Wow, Mary. I just looked up that song and it brings tears to my eyes. To think He loved us before we even knew what love was and it was us He was thinking about when He rose from the grave is so unfathomable, isn’t it? Then that “You’re almost home now” pulls up such longing in my heart. Thank you for telling me about this song. I’m grateful we are on this journey together to live and die with Christ! I pray you have a wonderful Easter as well filled with the life Jesus brings! May we live redeemed and restored by our Risen Jesus, free of all the shackles!

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