A Prostitute’s Plea

Jesus Cares

“Three things will last forever —
faith, hope, and love —
and the greatest of these is love.”
1 Corinthians 13:13 NLT

When I was sexually, spiritually, and emotionally abused by a pastor, I was talked about and treated as a “whore” by some people. Some said I led the “poor man of God” astray. I believed them and began to identify myself by their words. I was trash. Not even 100 showers a day could ever wash away the filth I felt.

Sometimes we are so ready to judge others when we don’t even know what lies in their hearts. I was never even asked my story. The elders never recognized all the signs and proof of abuse. But to be fair, at that time I felt and said I was totally to blame. Since I had recently become a member, I had to make my confession of guilt in front of the congregation.

Because of my experience, I feel a deep compassion for prostitutes. I know in my heart there is always a deeper story we don’t know.

Did you know that most prostitutes have a history of sexual abuse in their childhood? And the perpetrators are often family members? And this also happens in church communities? Did you know that many are victims of sex trafficking and are coerced or deceived into prostitution? Their minds and wills broken down so badly that they believe they’re not good for anything else?

Perpetrators stalk and prey on the lost, lonely, and vulnerable. So many prostitutes have never learned what real love is. They don’t see themselves as beautiful creations of God, because no one has ever told them. They feel unloved, uncared for, and forgotten.

“Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody,
I think that is a much greater hunger,
a much greater poverty than
the person who has nothing to eat.”
~ Mother Teresa

Recently my niece, who also feels a deep compassion, shared a poem/song she created from a prostitute’s perspective. It deeply touched me. I know what it’s like to feel alone and “stone cold” so as to shut off emotions. To be controlled like a puppet on strings. To feel in the midst of a “living hell” with no hope of ever getting out.

My niece, Shelley Marie, releases her emotions in songs that come into her heart. Like myself, it hurts her when someone says something bad about prostitutes. She has graciously given me permission to share her poem/song with you.


A Prostitute’s Plea

I sell my body for a dime
I’ve never heard a nursery rhyme
And if you can’t see my hurt I’ll never tell
Ya, that my life is like a living’ hell

I paint a smile on my face
And I can give you what it takes
And you’ll go on and brag about yourself
And you don’t know my life is a living’ hell

So, Please remember me someday
When all your lust fades away
And you’re contemplating where your life has gone
I once was just a little girl
Like the one you hug and give a twirl
The one who calls you Daddy when you get home
Please think of me with kindness in your soul

I never had a soul who cared
No one to hold me when I was scared
My heart is just about as cold as stone
And you don’t know how much I feel alone

I’ll act the way you want me to
‘Cause that’s all I know what to do
And there’s no part of me I call my own
And life is hell when you’re someones else’s pawn

So, Please remember me someday
When all your lust fades away
And you’re contemplating where your life has gone
I once was just a little girl
Like the one you hug and give a twirl
The one who calls you Daddy when you get home
Please think of me with kindness in your soul

 © Shelley Marie

A Child's Trust
 “Broken Girl”
by Matthew West


Lord Jesus, thank You so much for allowing Yourself to be broken so we can be made whole. For Your love and grace that can create beauty out of the ashes of our lives. Please give us open minds and hearts to all who are hurting. Help us to be gentle, loving, and compassionate. Not harsh, judgmental, and condemning. Please remember victims everywhere. You can see into every heart and You always know the true story. Please shine the power of Your healing love into their hearts and give them the strength and courage to break free from the chains of shame, insecurity, and fear. Give those who are still in physical and mind bondage the help and the power to get out of those situations. Give us prayerful hearts for them and the courage to do whatever we can. Lord, I believe in the power of Your love and grace! Please help!

Linking up with: 

Holley – Coffee For Your Heart 

Jennifer – Tell His Story 

Kelly – Cheerleaders of Faith

Barbie – Weekend Whispers

OneWordCoffee Linkup

America’s Freedoms, Heart-Breaking Slavery, and the Ultimate Freedom


America’s hard-fought-for independence in 1776 will soon be celebrated again with parades, fireworks, speeches, etc. I wonder sometimes: Am I truly grateful for all the freedoms we have in America? How often do I take them for granted?

When freedoms are taken from us, we learn to appreciate them so much more. I’m not trying to cast a shadow of gloom on the celebration of our nation’s independence. We truly have reason to celebrate. But I can’t help grieving that for many, there is no freedom in sight. Those who have lost control of their own wills and cannot even hope anymore. Yes, even in America.


“There are more slaves in the world today
than at any other point in human history,
with an estimated 27 million in bondage across the globe.
Men, women, and children are being exploited
for manual and sexual labor against their will.

Women and children are often kidnapped into the industry or
sold into it by family under desperate circumstances.
The average age of victims continues to grow younger
as clients seek “fresh” product.”

The A21 Campaign: Abolishing Injustice in the 21st Century

Doesn’t this just turn your stomach and break your heart? And this number doesn’t even include all the children, women, and even men whose bodies, minds, and souls are imprisoned in the shackles of abuse, either past or present. Emotional, verbal, mental, sexual. The unseen terrors of domestic violence and abuse hiding behind masks. The bondage of the will in cults and legalistic churches. Even in some Christian churches who refuse to believe their leaders may be guilty of violating the trust of and abusing vulnerable women and children. Who support perpetrators instead of victims.

Our Declaration of Independence states:

“We hold these truths to be self-evident,
that all men are created equal,
that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights,
that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.”

All men, women, and children have the God-given right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. Sadly, human traffickers and perpetrators continue to ignore these rights.

Yes, Americans, slavery is not only present in other parts of the world, but it is here in our “free” country. Much closer than we realize. And the slave drivers and traders include men with double lives – respected in their communities but carrying out unspeakable atrocities behind the scenes.

You, my brothers and sisters, were called to be free.
But do not use your freedom to indulge the flesh;
rather, serve one another humbly in love.
For the entire law is fulfilled in keeping this one command:
“Love your neighbor as yourself.”
Galations 5:13-14

Again, I’m not trying to cast a shadow of gloom over the celebration of our nation’s independence. May God truly bless America! I just ask that as we thank God for these freedoms, we also put in a plea for deliverance and healing for all those held captive by abuse and human-trafficking.

Above all, that we remember where our ultimate freedom lies – not in any human being or a country, but through Jesus who gave up His freedom so we could be set free. Free from all sin, our own sin and the sin others have committed against us.

It can sometimes be so hard to let this truth get past our heads and sink into our hearts. But no matter how distrusting we are of God’s intentions, He accepts us just as we are, brokenness and all. He remains faithful to His promises, no matter how we feel.

“So now there is no condemnation
for those who belong to Christ Jesus.
And because you belong to Him,
the power of the life-giving Spirit has freed you
from the power of sin that leads to death.”
Romans 8:1-2 NLT



Praying for your soul’s freedom in Christ,


New This Month: Links, Quotes, Books & More


Spring is here,cutecolorsplant6a
New life abounds.
Sprinkles of seeds
Growing gardens of flowers.
Sprinkles of kindness
Growing gardens of love.


A child’s touching example of love and kindness:

Before I go into what’s new, I’d like to point out an article that really draws awareness to sexual abuse within faith communities. Believe it or not, many feel they are “safe” within these communities, but sexual abuse happens everywhere, often much more from adults children have come to trust or have been told they need to obey without question. I have recently read accounts from those who were sexually trafficked and abused as children by ministers and elders and still have no support at all from a faith community. I am aware of and am grateful that some faith communities are not only aware, but vigilant and active in keeping children safe. But the truth is: If there is even one faith community that is not, it is too many. Even one child sexually trafficked and/or abused is too many.

Sex offenders, faith communities, and four common exploitations

Heaven Is for Real

You may have noticed my link is no longer a wordpress.com link, though it will still take you to my new one – freedtofly.me. I’ve also gotten rid of ads, so if you still see them, please let me know.



This book is just coming out, but I know it will be hope-packed, just like Bonnie’s Faith Barista blog is. I hope to write a book review on it in the near future, but here is the trailer:

“Is God trying to tell me something? God uses the oddest things to grab our full attention. Just ask the Old Testament prophet Balaam–God used a donkey to speak to him! The donkeys in our own lives can be difficult people, overwhelming odds, or interrupted plans. The problem is, we can easily miss these personal messages. How can we make sure we are really hearing God’s voice? With a healthy dose of humorous anecdotes and biblical truth, author Virelle Kidder tells us how she learned to listen to the donkeys in her life.” (Amazon Review)

Special quotes from this book:

    • “Our donkeys remind us to listen for God’s voice, to focus on Jesus, and to trust Him to give us everything we need for the journey.”
    • “Donkeys are intended to carry us to places where God’s power can be displayed”.
    • “Without our spiritual eyes opened, we seldom recognize that God is involved in every detail of this journey called life.”

“The unfortunate popular perception is that when someone is diagnosed with Alzheimer’s or dementia, they are immediately lost to themselves, to those who love them and to those they love. In I’M STILL HERE, John Zeisel shows how you can connect with someone through the fog of dementia and build a relationship with the person within. This groundbreaking book focuses on connecting with Alzheimer’s sufferers through the abilities that don’t diminish over the course of the disease, such as understanding music, art, facial expressions and touch. By harnessing these capacities, and by using other approaches to treatment, this book demonstrates how it is possible to offer sufferers a quality of life with a connection to others and to the world around them.” (Amazon Review)


Hope Harbor

  • Faith Barista – A safe harbor where Bonnie Gray encourages us to be “real,” to be inspired, to breathe.

“I believe life is a journey and our stories are the greatest gifts we can live out and offer to each other – especially when they go off script.

This is a quiet space. Where your soul can breathe and unplug from the sea of distractions. To step into the inner life where Jesus has made His home in you and me.

The writing featured here is handcrafted. Just for you.”

  • Coffee for Your Heart – Holley Gerth provides a refreshing brook of love, understanding, and encouragement for weary, thirsty travelers on this journey of life.

“I see this place as a bit like an online coffee shop. A spot to share our hearts, explore our dreams, laugh, encourage each other and celebrate what God is doing.”

  • Post Traumatic Stress Disorder by NAMI – A comprehensive booklet including: What Is Trauma?, The Neurobiology of PTSD, Diagnosing PTSD, PTSD and Co-Occurring Disorders, Family Impact of PTSD, Recovery and Coping, and Informational Resources.


Nature Retreat

“Some people, in order to discover God, read books. But there is a great book: the very appearance of created things. Look above you! Look below you! Read it. God, whom you want to discover, never wrote that book with ink. Instead He set before your eyes the things that He had made. Can you ask for a louder voice than that?” – St. Augustine

  • Did You Bring Your Camera – Refreshing, awesome snapshots of God’s marvelous creation in various categories from Anita Johnson



  • “Love one another and help others to rise to the higher levels, simply by pouring out love. Love is infectious and the greatest healing energy.” – Sai Baba
  • “When we tell our stories, the truth about our lives – the broken parts, the secret parts, the beautiful parts – then the gospel comes to life, an actual story about redemption.” – Shauna Niequist
  • “When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hang on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.” – Harriet Beecher Stowe