A heavy gloom weighted down my soul, and I felt like staying under the covers and curling into a ball. I had no desire to get up and face the day. But I grudgingly put one foot in front of another. I felt like a good-for-nothing. Again. I tried to cling to God’s promises, but He felt so distant. Again. Please help me, God!
I finally convinced myself to read some blog posts. As I try to communicate more with other bloggers, I am finding kindred spirits and I often find hope in their posts. I started out with a calling to encourage others, but God has often used others to encourage me. As I checked my email, there was a reply to one of my comments on a blog. One line really opened my eyes and heart that day:
“This cracked pot is happy to shine for the Lord
in her brokenness and woundedness!”
I so easily see myself as a cracked pot that’s good for nothing, but I need to remember that more light can shine through a cracked pot than a whole one. I don’t need to be completely healed inside first in order for the light of Jesus to shine.
Looking back at raising my children, I feel like I was too broken to be a good mother, but I forget that Jesus’ love could still shine through all the cracks and spill over onto my children. My children know I love them, and I am harder on myself than they are on me. I gaze at all my mistakes and failures and only glance at how much God’s love and grace helped me through so many difficulties. I need to not even give a second glance to my failures and gaze instead on the love of Jesus that cleanses us. To pour out all my imperfections at the foot of His perfect sacrifice.
I often struggle with what my purpose is here on earth. I confess that it’s hard for me to see God’s purpose in the limitations of chronic illness, but God can use that brokenness, too. I probably wouldn’t have this website if I didn’t have limited energy. And I can’t always see the purpose in my inner woundedness either, and I wonder how God can use me. So often when I write I am trying to convince myself. I love to encourage, but it’s not always easy to apply it to my own heart. I hope my writing doesn’t sound like I have it all together. I only hope Jesus’ love shines through all the brokenness.
I so easily forget that God loves cracked pots. And He uses them, too! Yes, He is the Healer and He can fix those cracks in the blink of an eye, but often He chooses healing to be a process. If we never felt wounded or broken, He could not use us as much for others who are broken.
“God has a plan for purpose and beauty in your life –
not despite your past, but because of it.”
~ Tracie Miles in Your Life Still Counts.
Do you feel too broken to be of any use to God? Do you wonder how His light could ever shine through you? Do you feel like your life has no real purpose? You’re not alone. Let’s remind each other that God loves cracked pots. The light of His love can shine through the cracks, however broken we may feel. He longs for us to bring all our brokenness to Him and ask Him to fill us with so much light that His rays will shine through the cracks and warm every heart around us.
“We now have this light shining in our hearts,
but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars
containing this great treasure.
This makes it clear that our great power
is from God, not from ourselves.”
~ 2 Corinthians 4:7
“Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus (Look Up)”
A Beautiful Song of Hope by Nichole Nordeman
Even when you feel broken,
Jesus’ love in your heart
can shine through the cracks!
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