Do you have trouble showing yourself compassion like Jesus does to you? Are you your greatest critic? Do you feel like you’re being selfish or wasting time and energy to be kind to yourself? Do you live from the template that you’re not enough and you’re unlovable? Do you acknowledge your experiences are valid or do you minimize or numb the pain?
When I first read about a book called Try Softer by Aundi Kolber, I knew I needed to read it, especially when I read:
“I want you to begin to develop a new awareness of your story and your wounds so you can attend to your pain with the same tenderness God does.”
To be honest, I don’t treat myself with the tenderness and compassion God does. Do you?
Aundi Kolber, a trauma therapist, discovered she never really learned how to hold the pain of others without internalizing it, because she had never really processed her own trauma. She just kept white-knuckling her way through, leaving herself exhausted and overwhelmed.
Trying softer means to become more attentive to our bodies, minds, and spirits so we can give each of these parts what it needs to heal. Trying hard to dismiss or deny our trauma will only have detrimental effects to ourselves and others. It’s in acknowledging the reality of our pain and learning to process our stories that we become more of who God designed us to be.
Aundi helps us to understand the complexity of our God-created brains and how God designed our bodies and minds to work together to process our stories. She equips, empowers, and encourages us to connect to our truest self, to move out of anxiety, stress, and survival mode into a life of connection and joy.
“In Try Softer, you’ll learn how to:
- Know and set emotional and relational boundaries
- Make sense of the difficult experiences you’ve had
- Identify your attachment style―and how that affects your relationships today
- Move through emotions rather than get stuck by them
- Grow in self-compassion and talk back to your inner critic
Trying softer is sacred work. And while it won’t be perfect or easy, it will be worth it. Because this is what we were made for: a living, breathing, moving, feeling, connected, beautifully incarnational life.”
I’m only into the fourth chapter of this book as I have to take it slowly, so I can process all I’m learning. And sometimes I need to put it aside for a while, because it’s not always easy to discover deep, buried layers that still need more healing. At the same time, I am fascinated by how God has wired our brains to process trauma.
Some of my favorite quotes so far are:
“There are truly times when the best, healthiest, most productive thing we can do is not to try harder, but rather to try softer: to compassionately listen to our needs so we can move through pain – and ultimately life – with more gentleness and resilience.”
“Like the ever-elusive quick fix, ignoring, pretending, or numbing something doesn’t usually resolve our pain.”
“When we deny the reality of our experiences, we don’t become more of who God designed us to be, but less.”
“When I understand why my brain is reacting the way it is, I become empowered to validate the underlying need and then work on changing the situation.”
“We are not defined by our best days or our worst days. We are His beloved.”
“You keep track of all my sorrows.
You have collected all my tears in Your bottle.
You have recorded each one in Your book.”
“The Lord is gracious and compassionate,
slow to anger and rich in love.
The Lord is good to all;
He has compassion on all He has made.”
He Knows My Name
by The McRaes